I finished a chapter. Yay! I haven't had a lot of time to write, so getting off work early today really helped me finally close up this chapter I've been working on for the last few weeks. x_x I believe the finished chapter is, in fact, Chapter 2. However, seeing as how Chapter 1 still remains to be written, I cannot be sure.
No worries. Chapter 1 can wait. I'm moving on.
It's tough work trying to concentrate with a crazy dog. Every sound he hears he thinks it must be Kevin coming home from work, because he barks like mad. When the front door fails to open, he sits and stares at it and starts whining and grunting. Now he's staring at me. Sometimes he has these fits where he has to run circles around the house. The house is so quiet, so every time he barks, it makes me jump. :X
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
Stuck. Stuck. Stuck.
My life need be described in only one single word: stuck. I've typed it so much, that it no longer looks like a real word to my brain.
I am writing because it is the only part of my life that I can really move forward. The rest of me remains stuck to this same spot that I've been in for the last year, and I think it is starting to mess with my brain a little bit.
I am trying so hard to make some sort of giant leap, but I keep being held back by some stupid obstacle. I want desperately to just make one jump...just one...but it feels so impossible. There is only so much time before I start taking drastic measures, but if this continues for any longer--if I am still here in the same spot at the end of the month--I will be forced to take those measures. It chills me to realize that I'll be throwing my money down a black hole, but, ironically, the only way I can move forward at this point is to dig my hole way deeper--aka: take out a high risk loan.
Ah, the irony. I will be stuck in paying off a loan that will never go down, in order to pay for the things I need to move forward...yet...I'll be putting myself in even more depth and ultimately moving back.
It's so confusing. x_x
I am writing because it is the only part of my life that I can really move forward. The rest of me remains stuck to this same spot that I've been in for the last year, and I think it is starting to mess with my brain a little bit.
I am trying so hard to make some sort of giant leap, but I keep being held back by some stupid obstacle. I want desperately to just make one jump...just one...but it feels so impossible. There is only so much time before I start taking drastic measures, but if this continues for any longer--if I am still here in the same spot at the end of the month--I will be forced to take those measures. It chills me to realize that I'll be throwing my money down a black hole, but, ironically, the only way I can move forward at this point is to dig my hole way deeper--aka: take out a high risk loan.
Ah, the irony. I will be stuck in paying off a loan that will never go down, in order to pay for the things I need to move forward...yet...I'll be putting myself in even more depth and ultimately moving back.
It's so confusing. x_x
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Le sigh.
I did it again, ya'll.
I changed my book. Right as I finished the first chapter, I thought to myself that I almost had it...that there was just one detail that wasn't quite right...
And I found that one detail after MUCH brain-picking this morning while getting ready for work (that is what hot showers are for). Fortunately, the characters are the same, and the storyline follows the same paranormal layout that I had (girl sees ghosts, etc). However, the setting has drastically changed, as has the tone. Unfortunately, because of the drastic change in setting, I have to sort of...start over. Clean slate.
But that is why I consider myself in the very beginning of the beginning of developing this book, because it will be revised and rewritten so many times. :X I am just as excited about it as I was with the first draft, because every revision I make just creates a better, tighter, story.
Once I finish the pitch, I'll post it. Until now, I've got another first chapter to write. =D
(On the bright side: I had no idea where I was going to go with the original first chapter, but this chapter is already laid out in my head, I just have to put it on the computer).
I changed my book. Right as I finished the first chapter, I thought to myself that I almost had it...that there was just one detail that wasn't quite right...
And I found that one detail after MUCH brain-picking this morning while getting ready for work (that is what hot showers are for). Fortunately, the characters are the same, and the storyline follows the same paranormal layout that I had (girl sees ghosts, etc). However, the setting has drastically changed, as has the tone. Unfortunately, because of the drastic change in setting, I have to sort of...start over. Clean slate.
But that is why I consider myself in the very beginning of the beginning of developing this book, because it will be revised and rewritten so many times. :X I am just as excited about it as I was with the first draft, because every revision I make just creates a better, tighter, story.
Once I finish the pitch, I'll post it. Until now, I've got another first chapter to write. =D
(On the bright side: I had no idea where I was going to go with the original first chapter, but this chapter is already laid out in my head, I just have to put it on the computer).
Saturday, January 24, 2009
I know this is a tad late, but let me just say that the Inauguration was pretty awesome. I am excited for Obama, because he really does represent change. He was elected because the American people are clearly sick of what Bush has done, and they obviously want change. This just goes to show that the Republicans really messed things up. :/ The proof is our President.
I'm placing a lot of trust in President Obama, so I really hope he doesn't let me down. I'll be highly disappointed if he does. =(
I am ready for my tax refunds to get here. Money is scarce. There is talk floating around about our hours possibly being cut a bit in the next few months. I hope it does not have to come down to that, as I'm having a hard enough time as it is maintaining a savings and having a bit to spend. I wish the Man would cut me some slack. That, however, is a whole 'nother rant.
I hit a big of a snag on my first chapter, but I'm wading my way through it and I think it's almost coming to a close--finally. I've revised and rewritten this first chapter at least three times now, and once this revision is finished, I'm moving on and not touching it again.
I'm placing a lot of trust in President Obama, so I really hope he doesn't let me down. I'll be highly disappointed if he does. =(
I am ready for my tax refunds to get here. Money is scarce. There is talk floating around about our hours possibly being cut a bit in the next few months. I hope it does not have to come down to that, as I'm having a hard enough time as it is maintaining a savings and having a bit to spend. I wish the Man would cut me some slack. That, however, is a whole 'nother rant.
I hit a big of a snag on my first chapter, but I'm wading my way through it and I think it's almost coming to a close--finally. I've revised and rewritten this first chapter at least three times now, and once this revision is finished, I'm moving on and not touching it again.
Monday, January 12, 2009
I did not forget about my blog, ya'll. =) Something Very Unfortunate happened to my parent's computer, which means that they now use mine. As much as I am an advocate for sharing (this being when surrounded by Kevin's three hellish nieces and nephew and one microphone for Rockband), I do not enjoy sharing my computer with the family. Not only is my entire private life (recorded in various e-journals for the last--say--9 years) there for them to find if they so happened to search, but I can't work on my novel as much. This makes me sad. As much as I enjoy handwriting, I have very terrible penmenship and I write so...damn....slow. Bleh!
However, it does leave me loads of time to study my pharmacy. Hooray.
On to my new topic: Rockband.
Kevin and I bought the little nieces and nephew (and their parents, apparently), Guitar Hero (World Tour--two guitars) for Christmas. To be honest, I am surprised the guitars lasted as long as they did (three weeks-ish?). The other day, one of them, unable to burden the relentless beating it recieved by said hellish children, finally broke down and died. The game was thus returned and Rockband subsequently purchased.
I really really really miss Guitar Hero.
Rockband would be fun if it was not for the three screaming children all vying for the microphone to sing. This might seem tolerable, however, two of those children cannot read. Therefore, I had to endure the awful sound of two four-year-olds screaming, humming, and otherwise just making up random words and unintelligable noises, into a microphone with the sound jacked all the way up.
Migraine, anyone?
Nevertheless, Kevin and I are going to go ahead and stick with Rockband when we get our own system (a Wii, I think). He likes playing the drums. I also think its healthy for him to hit things other than me....
Just kidding. ^_^
PS: I give this game two weeks tops before the drums collapse and the guitar falls to pieces, screaming for mercy.
However, it does leave me loads of time to study my pharmacy. Hooray.
On to my new topic: Rockband.
Kevin and I bought the little nieces and nephew (and their parents, apparently), Guitar Hero (World Tour--two guitars) for Christmas. To be honest, I am surprised the guitars lasted as long as they did (three weeks-ish?). The other day, one of them, unable to burden the relentless beating it recieved by said hellish children, finally broke down and died. The game was thus returned and Rockband subsequently purchased.
I really really really miss Guitar Hero.
Rockband would be fun if it was not for the three screaming children all vying for the microphone to sing. This might seem tolerable, however, two of those children cannot read. Therefore, I had to endure the awful sound of two four-year-olds screaming, humming, and otherwise just making up random words and unintelligable noises, into a microphone with the sound jacked all the way up.
Migraine, anyone?
Nevertheless, Kevin and I are going to go ahead and stick with Rockband when we get our own system (a Wii, I think). He likes playing the drums. I also think its healthy for him to hit things other than me....
Just kidding. ^_^
PS: I give this game two weeks tops before the drums collapse and the guitar falls to pieces, screaming for mercy.
Monday, January 5, 2009
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