I finished a chapter. Yay! I haven't had a lot of time to write, so getting off work early today really helped me finally close up this chapter I've been working on for the last few weeks. x_x I believe the finished chapter is, in fact, Chapter 2. However, seeing as how Chapter 1 still remains to be written, I cannot be sure.

No worries. Chapter 1 can wait. I'm moving on.

It's tough work trying to concentrate with a crazy dog. Every sound he hears he thinks it must be Kevin coming home from work, because he barks like mad. When the front door fails to open, he sits and stares at it and starts whining and grunting. Now he's staring at me. Sometimes he has these fits where he has to run circles around the house. The house is so quiet, so every time he barks, it makes me jump. :X

Stuck. Stuck. Stuck.

My life need be described in only one single word: stuck. I've typed it so much, that it no longer looks like a real word to my brain.

I am writing because it is the only part of my life that I can really move forward. The rest of me remains stuck to this same spot that I've been in for the last year, and I think it is starting to mess with my brain a little bit.

I am trying so hard to make some sort of giant leap, but I keep being held back by some stupid obstacle. I want desperately to just make one jump...just one...but it feels so impossible. There is only so much time before I start taking drastic measures, but if this continues for any longer--if I am still here in the same spot at the end of the month--I will be forced to take those measures. It chills me to realize that I'll be throwing my money down a black hole, but, ironically, the only way I can move forward at this point is to dig my hole way deeper--aka: take out a high risk loan.

Ah, the irony. I will be stuck in paying off a loan that will never go down, in order to pay for the things I need to move forward...yet...I'll be putting myself in even more depth and ultimately moving back.

It's so confusing. x_x